Please accept our sincere sympathies on the death of your hubby! No-one can share/feel this grief more than yourself - your time together, the lovely things you built together over the years and the fun-filled times in your life as you matured. This is the winter of your grief - a slow, long, dormant period but eventually, as time goes by, your relationship/memories with your hubby will transcend time and the healing process will be heightened as each day goes by.
My wish for you is to be strong for you, your children, your parents and his parents. Continue to ask God for faith and blessings and may he give you a better understanding of death and acceptance.
Kyla and Steve
btw, I have borrowed seksyred's handle to come in.