Bai, people usually don't flock to add depressing elements to their lives. Usually, people want to surround themselves with those who make them laugh, who are funny and engaging. They do everything in their power to avoid anything that will bring them down. You have to find the way to rid yourself of all this nonsense that bothers you. They obviously aren't doing you any good. If your books are selling, try something else. Cain tried making tennis rolls. He was horrible at it but at least he tried. When he finally gave up on that, he started planting grass. Who the rass plant grass? 
