Anyhow, I believe they are transporting me around the world although my environment may seem the same to affect change due to my mental development.
Stop wasting your time feeling sorry for yourself and waiting for others to solve your mental development. Do like me. Focus that energy into things that you can enjoy. I collect stamps, go angling, and build audio equipment that I sell all over the world. Before I did those things I used to look myself in my bedroom for years. Then I heard about the guy who started MacDonalds. He had locked himself in a cupboard for three years prior to opening his burger bar.
You are only looking at plan A. But there are a lot more letters in the alphabet to choose from. Try a different plan and divest your energy and potential. Now, there's a paranoid thought to get your teeth into and make some money from it at the same time.